In my darkest hour, he is with me.
You guys, you know what is so crazy?😆
I have felt nothing but peace and comfort as this pandemic has hit. I have felt more connected to my Father in Heaven and a surge of strength💪 that I have not had in a long time. Fear is leaving as God brings to the world what a lot of us have already been experiencing. 🙏
I have been living a life of vulnerability and chaos for the past four years with extreme amounts of insecurities, uncertainties, loss, and sorrow. 😢During this time, I have taken severe cautions to prepare my heart💔❤️ and my spirit, NOT my pantry or my cupboards (I may regret this😉), but yet I feel most at peace with my choices.😇
You see, last year at this time, I lost the priesthood in my home, and the eternal marriage that I had no idea was in jeopardy. I lost my faith, my confidence, my self-worth, my self-esteem, and for a short time, my ability to cope, problem-solve, and have healthy relationships.🤦🏼♀️😓 Everything seemed to end so abruptly, even though the betrayal extended over time, it hit all at once.🙀
I felt isolated, alone, and scared. My home at first felt friendless and hollow, and the ability to extend myself in several directions or with multiple people became vacant.😦 I was losing people left and right as my heart spiraled down, and the extent of my actions resulted in the loss of relationships, that required to much work on my part.🙅♀️
I was in solitary; I could stand in a room full of people and feel so alone. 😧My body was going through the actions, but my mind was numb and dark. I felt deserted and abandon from those that I loved the most, and fear overtook my soul, my body, my spirit, my mind, and my heart. 🥺🤯
It seemed like months even years, but after wallowing in my predicament, I almost immediately began the FIGHT! 😤👏🏼
I am not here to judge or also to get a sympathy vote from anyone because I have been fighting for my soul and loved ones surround me.👩❤️💋👩 💞I don’t need the attention; I merely want to take what got me through this chaos and share it with you because it has saved my soul, 🍝 not my stomach, 🧻 or my butt (😉😉 sorry I have to throw these in because the memes are getting to me👏🏼).
Our souls need the nutrients through this hard time, and lucky for us; we are all in this together and can help where we can!🍏🍓🥯 We do not need much to survive, 👥 but we do need each other too!! My two cents is pretty much all I have to offer, and so here I go. ✍️❤️
After devastation took over my home and my life and the foundation and reality I thought I had was obliterated, I stood alone with no lifeline in my spiritual soul, physical body, emotional state, or relational supply. I had to strip myself down to the bare goods and start to cleanse and rebuild.🛠
I began to build myself again. My home became my sanctuary, a place of peace and harmony. 🏡 The thought of being stuck in it does not put fear in my heart, but faith in my soul. Mainly because it holds my tiny humans the exact things that have inspired me to fight for life every day. 👼🏻👼🏻Will I lose patience with them and wish to have a break, 🤦♀️most likely🤷♀️, but I will look back as will they, and we will remember this time forever and cherish it.🧸❤️
I have trained for these moments, and so have you to be humble warriors; we have been fighting battles through life to prepare us for these moments. 🏋️♀️ Should we be these warriors all day every day? You bet we should, but have we been? I can’t speak for you, but I know I haven’t, and these are the moments that define us💛, these are the moments that mold us, and these are the moments that remind us of who and what matters. 🧘♀️ What matters is each other, not our things and not our screens but us together!🤪
I have wanted to share my two cents again, and even though I am still rebuilding🛠, I have been dying to share with others how to battle this and what will help with social distancing or isolation if you will. It is going to be epic, so jump in and join me!📝🗝
For me, this situation is pure rejuvenation and absolute invigorating for our mind, body, and spirit! This post is turning into a novel📖, so I am going to break it up over several posts📧. Every day, I will give you my 2cents on how to battle these situations and life’s nonsense during this most trying time you can take it or leave it. ❤️🥰😆
Join with me in conquering the sorrow that comes with life being uncertain; we will embrace the chaos and empower our souls.😍😁
WE GOT THIS!!😇🤩🥳
Tip #1: STOP JUDGING 🤨🙅♀️ 🙅♂️
Tip #2: TBA…..
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